Here are a few links so you can look into it: http://onceiwasaman.blogspot.com/ || http://purseboy.wordpress.com/ || http://inanimatetf.blogspot.com/
If you were so inclined, you can peruse through those links and find some others. Theres even additional sources outside of that sphere like over at fictionmania.tv, where they have some few hundred stories pertaining to the matter.
Now, having dabbled in some RP in the past with other TGers I know this isn't exactly everyone's cup of tea, so don't think I'm trying to push my own delight onto you. But, I'd like to try to get my idea here with this topic. This inanimate object fetish is to crossdreaming/autogynephilia, what CDing/AGing is to the TG community at large, mostly ignored and not very well liked (in my experience).
And as such, I doubt anyone has done any cross-referencing which may shine further light on AGP as a whole.
Back to my original idea here: What is it between the 2 distinctly separate (but similar) fetishes that shares common ground? The only thing that I can think of is femininity as a symbol.
I'll let that sink in, and move onto my next topic.
I hypothesize that all this AGP / Inanimate stuff I'm experiencing is the RESULT of something else, not the cause (of anything). That is to say, that my AGP is one of the many compulsive behaviors I exhibit- to go along with overeating, or overspending.
My best guess as to what this cause is, is that I indeed have some sort of identity dysphoria. As I've mentioned previously, I've pretty much come to terms with the fact that I am a TS- by acknowledging the fact that I've wanted to be a girl since well before the sexual stage.
Assuming these ideas hold any weight, it would seem like the only true treatment would be to start the process of transitioning and see if that makes my compulsions go away and make me a happier individual. But theres still a couple of things standing in my way: 1. I couldn't be "passable," and thats a big deal to me. 2. I really doubt I'm feeling the same kind of urgency that I see expressed on various TS youtube videos for transitioning [seems like a different mindset], and 3. I have absolutely no resources for such an undertaking.
So basically, the only thing that *might* fix me is something I can never achieve. Which means, there really is no scratching this itch... And I'm not sure of what to hope for.
Does anybody smoke pot? Is it stuff like this that make people smoke pot? I think I'd like to try it.